#a long ramble

[adasknife]

i'm such a negative person towards poor ada when i interpret her- but everytime i look at her i feel guilty in a sense or two. she had tragedy knitted into her, her stubbornness that she probably swears up and down that has kept her alive. her stubbornness though still keep her in lousy job, she can't keep platonic or romantic relationships. ada doesn't know what the hell she is doing sometimes and promises herself that she'll get better.

her ideal life isn't to marry or to have children. it's just be a normal woman with her love for fashion. that's all ada can even manage keeping as works her long hours of work. ada knows she isn't a good person but she lacks to see she is most decent person.

that's why ada is so focused on her love for leon- that's the only thing that feel normal to her despite it not being normal. she doesn't know this man yet she believes he can change her when she only is capable of doing good things. she doesn't see herself as insecure or weak in that sense, but she doesn't see proper good in herself.

she thinks her beauty is al that matters, it has worked for her the last ten years so of course it has worked. it had saved her life a billion times. her looks, her tits- she has nothing but her looks. and when she does manage to fall in love, she doesn't take care of herself. she doesn't properly know if something is toxic for her because what if she loses what made her normal?

everyone has an ideal of her: the cruel woman who seduces men, women and others; a puppet who is controlled by her employer. even leon doesn't properly see her because he has problems of his own. he sees her as a maybe, a perhaps because he knows he'll get bored of her once she drops that flirty persona he grew to love. she was born broken, at least that's how she feels, and she feels guilty every damn second of her life. that's why she helps people- the guilt is rotting inside of her and no matter how many good things she does. she hears those familiar words, "you haven't changed ada." once someone mentions that detail of hers, she feels like a toy.

she is project. people want to change her. change her for their wants and likes.

and her stupid stubborn attitude comes in the way again and ruins her life.

[severevoiddragon]

AAAAAA Nimonaaaaaaa

An essay on details I've noticed and liked on my 3rd watch through, Spoilers Ahead if you still haven't seen it! :D

First of all, out of all the forms she could have been for her "default" form, Nimona picked the form they did, short and chubby. As a chubby girl, I like how she evidently likes being that shape, because they're a shapeshifter, and can LITERALLY TURN INTO A WHALE.

Idk if I'm reading too much into this but I noticed that everyone has a Shape for their eye reflections: Ballister a square; Ambrosius an inverted triangle; The Director, Gloreth (and other Institution people) a diamond; Nimona an S shape. However, as the movie goes on and more people think Nimona is a monster - including herself - their eye reflections turn into diamonds. Like those who hate Monsters. It's important to note that I don't think this is just a "MCs have funky eye highlights but we forgot to animate it for the Giant Nimona Scene", BC the random people have different eye highlights until Everyone Thinks She's a Monster. Then, when people realise she's Not, their eye highlights change, notably that little girl and her mum, who now have inverted traingles (iirc, don't quote me on this). I feel it was intentional and, to fit the themes of the movie, you will see what you want to see. Ambrosius and Ballister and Nimona all have unique perspectives, Ambrosius' aligning more with the People, Ballister's aligning with an altered perspective of the Institute (like, he used to think it was good, but his reality's been shifted), and Nimona has a totally different perspective, as her eye highlights have curves (which!!! Noone else does!!!!) Idk I'm just rambling bout a detail

That's all I wanna say that hasn't already been said tbh, I hope someone else noticed this/has an Opinion on this! (I may be completely wrong tbh)

(ps if I remember I may add photos but don't hold your breath-)

[killingg-eve]

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I was watching a rly good fancam (or whatever you want to call it), yesterday, on Twitter. And it brought back all my emotions about KE for the first time since the finale (// soon after the finale).

I realized that at some point, without meaning to, i blocked out KE and became numb to it. I kno it sounds really dramatic and whatever. But for the past 2 years, I've been wondering why I couldn't feel anything or write anything anymore. Yet, i knew i had to still have these characters around me somehow? So i have stickers in/on my planner, i have stuff on my work desk, i have art hanging in my bedroom. I needed them around me but I couldn't feel anything anymore.

It's also weird bc i know the whole story of the show after watching it 5-6 times, but it feels like lost memories at the same time.

In conclusion my brain is weird, the finale was associated with more pain than i anticipated or perceived of immediately after its airing, KE is actually like a giant wound even tho that sounds dramatic and unreal, and it's like a source of actual irl grief that has gone latent in my mind even tho i love it and would rather continue to engage, write, etc..

I'm not even necessarily mad anymore that they killed Villanelle, but i do wonder, what was the impact of the fact that we all watched that blindly?? Based on everything I've written here, it's Not looking good. Plus i had IRL trauma the day before it aired, so........💀

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[witnessprotectionprogramurl]

[justafanbutcurious]

[wasabi-gumdrop]

local ladies man’s signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabru’s fumble era at 6

[aesethewitch]

When I was a kid, we moved into a house that had a huge lilac tree out front. It was mostly rotten, and it needed to be taken down before it fell. It took a while, but eventually, it was gone.

Mostly. A couple years later, little lilac babies popped out of the ground in its place. My mom was determined to get rid of them, because she'd planted a beautiful flower garden there, and the lilac trees would overshadow and kill the whole garden. I insisted on saving at least a few saplings. She said fine, but I had to dig them out and put them in pots myself.

So, I did. I spent days digging little lilac bushes out of the ground and putting them into pots. Some couldn't be saved, but some could. When all was said and done, I had five brand-new lilac saplings. Seven or eight years old, and it was my absolute pride and joy.

Three died due to sun scorching, severe drought that no amount of watering could save, and perhaps just being moved from their place in the ground. But two survived, and I was awfully proud of them! I'd go out and talk to them every single day. I watered them by hand and made sure they were fertilized properly. I learned all about their favored environments, and I was determined to make sure they lived.

One of my mom's friends saw what I was doing with the lilacs. She asked if she could have one to put in her backyard, and I agreed on the condition that she take very, very good care of it.

It's now fucking enormous. I'm talking ten feet tall and bursting with beautiful purple flowers every spring. My mom still gets updates each year as they start to bloom, which she forwards to me. And all I can think is, "That's my friend! Thriving some twenty years on, there it is."

The other tree nearly died, too. It lived in a pot for far, far too long. I wanted to plant it somewhere in my parents' yard, but my mom was reluctant. Eventually, we agreed to put it in the far back garden. It grew okay for many years, despite the shade, but in all these years, it's never bloomed.

Last year, the massive tree casting massive shadows over the lilac and the garden cracked in half and fell. It tumbled into the garden, crushing part of the nearby shed and destroying a few plants beneath it.

It missed my lilac by inches.

The clean-up is long done. The rest of the tree has been cut down, and my lilac has full sunlight for the first time in fifteen years. It won't bloom this year, I know. But it's got new shoots up. It's taller than ever. I spent half an hour a few weeks ago praising it for surviving all this time, dreaming about its future and telling it how I believe it'll become the tall beauty it's always been meant to be.

I think next year, I'll see flowers.

[goldensunset]

did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back

[eydilily]

would you bite the hand that feeds you?

[genlossranbooautism]

You use "arospec people can still date and feel romantic attraction " as an excuse to ship cannon aro characters , I use it as justification to headcannon characters who canonically feel romantic attraction as arospec , we are not the same

[townofcrosshollow]

Shocked how many people think you can just turn on a computer and leave it on for weeks or months or years and never turn it off and it'll be fine. Computers need their sleep, and sleep mode does not count

[logorrhea5mip]

Sorry for the bad photo quality, Tumblr doesn't like posts this long.

[doomdoomofdoom]

Kamala Harris does want "transgender surgery on illegal aliens that are in prison", btw.

So since Trumpists are getting mad enough about the jokes to actually cite their sources, I thought I'd put the source out into my left extremist commie faggot echo chamber, too.

The claim originates from an ACLU questionnaire she filled out for her 2020 presidential candidacy, specifically this section:

She wasn't given a new questionnaire for 2024, and has stated that while her policy on some things may have changed, her values had not. (This most likely means she moved more to the center to appease larger demographics and cut corners to reach compromises. The basic politician stuff.)

It boils down to this: If you're in prison, whether for "illegal" immigration or other crimes, you rely on the state to provide you with necessary amenities, like food and health care. Her argument isn't "hell yeah everyone in prison should get sex changes for free". It's "gender affirming surgery is a necessary medical procedure. If you are in the states care while this becomes necessary, the state should provide it." If you're outraged by your tax money being used on this, consider the massive amount of people being incarcerated in for-profit prisons, on your dime. Then ask yourself if maybe a prison reform might be in order.

Worth noting: In 2015, while Attorney General, Kamala Harris actually argued against providing gender-affirming surgery to an incarcerated trans woman, claiming that HRT and psychotherapy were sufficiently covering her medical needs. She has since obviously changed her stance and assumed responsibility. (I would like to take this moment to remind my fellow left extremist commie faggots that "willingness to learn and rethink your views" is infinitely more valuable than "perfect from the start and unwilling to listen to anyone")

Also found in the source: This image of Kamala Harris participating in the 2019 San Francisco Pride Parade, wearing what I believe to be a sequin rainbow embroidered denim jacket.

I encourage you to read the provided CNN article and the answers to the ACLU questionnaire, as they give great insight into her values.

TLDR: Based.

[aashiqeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

[unforth]

Gentle reminder that very little fandom labor is automated, because I think people forget that a lot.

That blog with a tagging system you love? A person curates those tags by hand.

That rec blog with a great organization scheme and pretty graphics? Someone designed and implemented that organization scheme and made those graphics.

That network that posts a cool variety of stuff? People track down all that variety and queue it by hand, and other people made all the individual pieces.

That post with umpteen links to helpful resources, and information about them? Someone gathered those links, researched the sources, wrote up the information about them.

That graphic about fandom statistics? Someone compiled those statistics, analyzed them, organized them, figured out a useful way to convey the information to others, and made the post.

That event that you think looks neat? Someone wrote the rules, created the blogs and Discords, designed the graphics, did their best to promo the event so it'd succeed.

None of this was done automatically. None of it just appears whole out of the internet ether.

I think everyone realizes that fic writing and fanart creation are work, and at least some folks have got it through their heads that gif creation and graphics and moodboards take effort, and meta is usually respected for the effort that goes into it, at least as far as I've seen, but I feel like a lot of people don't really get how much labor goes into curation, too.

If people are creating resources, curating content, organizing the creations of others, gathering information, and doing other fandom activities that aren't necessarily the direct action of creation, they're doing a lot of fandom labor, and it's often largely unrecognized.

Celebrate fan work!

To folks doing this kind of labor: I see you, and I thank you. You are the backbones of our fandoms and I love you.